I'm Nobody! Who are you?
I'm
Nobody! Who are you?
Are
you – Nobody – too?
Then
there's a pair of us!
Don't
tell! they'd advertise – you know!
How
dreary – to be – Somebody!
How
public – like a Frog –
To
tell one's name – the livelong June –
To
an admiring Bog!
This has always been one of my favorite poems
from the day I first read it in high school. I think it was 9th grade.
Why? Because I could relate so well to it as I believe many abuse victims can b/c
that’s what we’ve been told and how we’ve been treated by our family,
significant other, partner, husband/wife, etc.
I’ve actually been told by a male “friend” of
mine that strong (meaning emotionally) women don’t become victims of abuse b/c
they know better than let themselves be treated like that. And herein lies the
problem w/that false assumption – not only does it re-victimize the victim or
survivor but it also lays all the blame on her instead of the abuser. A victim
doesn’t choose to be a victim nor do they know what they’re getting into at the
beginning of a relationship. Whereas an abuser chooses to abuse and knows
exactly what he’s getting into when he enters into a relationship. He or she is
not looking for love but control. The full responsibility of the abuse lies on
the shoulders of the abuser. The victim is never to blame.
Why is the victim absolved of all responsibility?
Simply put, she is manipulated from the very start and soon becomes entangled
in the abusers web of manipulation, lies, and abuse without realizing it until
its too late and she’s already caught in the spider’s web. And this isn’t a
small, friendly spider. It’s a predatory one worse even than a black widow. At
least the black widow has a well recognized warning mark. The abuser has no
such mark that is well recognized except by those who already know the red
flags and don’t brush them off as we tend to do b/c we want to think good of
people, especially people we like and have begun to trust.
Trust is at the root of any good, long term relationship
so in order to get a victim to commit, an abuser has to establish trust. This
isn’t hard b/c he poses as a nice guy and wears a mask in public. There’s a
reason people don’t want to believe a victim, and that is b/c the abuser is so
good at acting. And this is the same act they pull on a victim. It’s been
compared to the Dr Jekyll/Mr Hyde character. He is Dr Jekyll, the nice,
charming, intelligent man and then once a victim is hooked, Mr Hyde, the evil,
cruel man comes out. Abusers are very adept at the “Prince Charming” routine,
and most women dream about their “Prince Charming” so when they find him they
fall head over heels for him and feel like they’re living a dream.
For women who have come from an abusive home
life its even easier to fall into this trap b/c many times they are looking for
a way to escape and this seemingly perfect man offers that. My ex-fiance told
me he would never hurt me and would protect me and keep me safe and I believed
him even after he hurt me b/c I was so desperate to find a man to love me and,
he acted like he did. He was sorry when he hurt me until I started “overreacting”
and being “too sensitive.” Even emotionally strong women dream of finding
Prince Charming and so they get involved w/an abuser and fall into his trap
before they see it for what it really is.
Whether abuse victims start out as women w/a
healthy, strong sense of self-worth or as shy, vulnerable women w/no sense of
self-worth the end result is the same: all feel like a “nobody” once they are
caught in the clutches of an abuser. In order for an abuser to control his
victim he must first isolate her and destroy any sense of self she may have had
through the use of lies and manipulation. It is exceptionally difficult to
realize how bad of a situation you’re in and see yourself as being worthy of a
better relationship w/a man who will treat you as you deserve when you don’t
think you deserve or can do any better than the man you fell in love with.
Hence why we need to focus on building up a victim or survivor’s sense of self-
to help them out of the darkness and prevent them falling into another abusive
relationship.
We (victims and survivors both) are NOT
nobody. We are somebody worthy of love,
respect, and kindness. Learn to love yourself and defeat the “I’m nobody”
attitude. We all are loveable because we don’t seek to destroy other people.
Otherwise we would never have been victims in the 1st place.
XOXOXO,
Lavender
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